03.07.06

When it comes to concepts and understanding something without knowing much about it, usually generalizing to do this, I am pretty good, but doing it is entirely different. There I seem to run in to so many minute problems & depress myself because of them. I am good when some1 takes care of those problems for me, and that’s why I like copying an expert at his work. However if I take heed with what I’m practicing, it turns out that I need to understand the concepts but work on balancing them when I work, so the problem is no longer conceptual, it never is, its all an equilibrium chase. So all I have to do is know which concept takes me in what direction, too low or too high from my expected target goal; just like learning how to accelerate a car no too slowly and not too quickly by making sure I push with enough force on the pedal, but in my situation the pedal may not be the only factor affecting the acceleration of the car, others might be there as well (say I change lanes into a road of glue then I need to push harder to accelerate at the same speed)
It really helps to think of physics as real world problems. If I want to figure out with what action I can stop a spinning basketball, I don’t think of the forces as I would be forced to do so in physics, instead I immediately think of placing a hand on it anywhere but the top and I see it will slow down, That anywhere demonstrates friction, which I normally think of as a force I need to find which will oppose another force to neutralize it if I just learn to think of forces so intuitively. Say a stack of boxes each with a smaller perimeter than the last one were stacked on top each other. What prevents them from falling? The box below them (or the ground for the 1st box). Now say they’re upside down . . . well they won’t stay, they need a rope etc. How did I know that, intuitively. Looking at it with forces the second stack was being pulled down by gravity w/o any force to counteract it, which is why I added the rope. The first pair had a normal force from the box below to “hold” up the box on top. So if I think I can just intuit the force vectors I am wrong, b/c I first need to practice, only with experience not involving paper & pencil, b/c that doesn’t seem to do it ever!, before I can say when I will need a force here or there (or I could just imagine a vector acts just like a rope)
I am so stubborn that when I read anything, I make a quick judgment and am set to it at once, no matter if it is right or wrong. The rest of my energy is spent in frustration, which I acquire when I try to prove myself wrong. I am not frustrated b/c I cannot understand the right answer, but because I question my own authority constantly. I feel the same whenever I interact daily with dad. I also feel the same way when I try to make myself change a visual image I’ve imagined into a new one which I know not to be true. This also explains why I learn so well when some1 else teaches me. Then I do not have to think for myself and when I do think, which is also when the information is presented to me, it is the first information presented and therefore I do not question it but take it as law Funnily enough, this works the same way when I do test corrections. When I feel like this I loathe it! I only wish that I did not feel so and I blame it on my attempts to change the way I think therefore disabling myself from any school related HW activities or work in general and degenerating into a lazy bum.